Releasing a Reminder

She's walking, but she wants to run.  She's breathing but it's not filling her lungs...not fully...not to a point where she feels relief.  

She looks down at her body, just for a second to check...everything's in place but it feels not quite right...like her draping clothes, her tight and porous skin don't quite belong... but they must for now - she knows. 

She's focused...she has to be...because as soon as she takes her mind off the prize it wont make sense.  She doesn't want to enter the confusion...chaos.

She smiles...to remind herself that there is joy in this.  Not in the heaviness of flesh, but in the lightness of spirit.  Thank you for giving me a spirit...your Spirit, she whispers under her breath.

Restlessness is a familiar condition...feeling trapped in the flesh but knowing you couldn't possibly be contained by it...but only for a little while.  But this little while is not a time to rush.  It's a gift...it's a gift...it's a gift.  Her heart beats this rhythm because she can't forget.  Not for one second.

When you feel like a foreigner...like an outsider in your own shell...your own home, don't be surprised or discouraged.  It's not meant to discourage ...just remind...there's more...you are more.

Give praise for the gift...no matter how strange, or how unsure you are of what or how or why.

Faith is trusting there's a reason...a purpose.

Meanwhile we groan, longing to be clothed with our heavenly dwelling, because when we are clothed, we will not be found naked.  For while we are in this tent, we groan and are burdened, because we do not wish to be unclothed but to be clothed with our heavenly dwelling, so that what is mortal may be swallowed up by life. ~2 Corinthians 5:2-3

We live by faith, not by sight. ~2 Corinthians 5:7

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